just venting

dont wanna rain on no ones parade ; but as the days go by , i tend to question everything or maybe i just overthink alot of stuff.  People may not know, but i see right thru alot of things. I hate when people sugarcoat shit and hates when people "beats around the bush" to get shit out. Like fuck , seriously ? nothings going to hurt my feelings . What feelings <-- is what i think sometimes. What feelings do i have to offer anyone anyways ? theyve all been crushed , chewed up , and threw away. heartless ill say ; Im only sweet when i wanna be but no one can change how i am. A non-caring person; Its like I wanna care so bad but i always expect the worst and in the end the shit you already knew wont be so bad or suprising. Or maybe is it just me. Maybe im too deep and too serious or maybe that person may think im just a total bitch ! maybe i am...Until someone can show me and prove to me that they are not like the others, shit will change..until then idgaf still ; I just need some understanding, but yet no one understands. they say they do but they really dont. Unless someone has been in my shoes they dont understand shit i say or shit that i have or am going thru...but you know what , i dont expect for noone to understand shit ; people dont think as i do. so much is on my mind right now, so deep i dont even wanna write it . fuck it. itll stay in there until i feel like venting more . as for now fuck this, fuck them , and fuck that. fuck everything ...yeah ; im [angry] i dont care.