Alot of things been hurting my feelins lately ; when i do get my feelings hurt , its like another regular day.(sigh) owell

waiting for his text to come thru , as ya telling ya friends how in love you are.
needing someone to talk to , wanting to talk to him , but hes never there.
telling you that he loves you , but not wanting a relationship ;
saying hes not ready , cuhs he talks to other females, nothing ambivilant.
hes the only one you want , but you dono if he wants the same, you have the spark , all you need is the flame.
one minute he makes you smile , the next its a frown;
you found out something by observing and putting things together.
at first your sad but then feels the cutting of anger.
you wanna be mad but theres nothing suprising.
just the love you didnt want to be so blindly.
love that im not looking for anymore , love that can come find me.

her cure

Getting up shaking

ribs showing tru her skin

body filthy , walking scarcely to get her coat;

going through all of it , just to get one dose;

walking down city alleys with hills she can barely walk in,

looking for the one thing that make her feel better in life,

letting people take advantage of her just to get it.

sticking her arm while she tilts her head on the brick wall

as the tears quietly dripped upon her face.

the black eyeliner covering her cheeks

her minds racing,

people running ; cars coming

towards her people following her

shes high; wants to be high of life

instead inside its killing her, that little drug she calls her cure.

nowhere to sleep or lay her head on

but the trashy city sidewalks.

nowhere to bathe , no money to eat

not caring about that .the needle is all she needs.

wrist drippin blood

glass was the cutter,

relieving pain making everything feel better;

no one cared anyway

she didnt even care.

her cure made her problems runaway

just for a minute.

she hated life

had no strength

hated everyone

it was just her

killing her body

inside and out

fuck it

dose number 100

let end it.....

sin in the rain.

longing in the rain;
take my hands , there open , baby dont be scared ;
im right here..
walking towards me;
but naked just skin , while the rain drips from their chin , baby walk towards me as we begin this sin.
lets get high off love ;
getting drunk off each others kisses ; while he touches my misses ; lets began our mixes, our mixes of juices.
caressing each other;
on the sidewalk , as our bodies forelock , were everywhere baby almost to the crosswalk;
its pouring down rain;
whispering while hes inside , i just wanna take you their , inside my deepsides , wet like a waterslide.
this is what were here for ;
pleasing eachothers needs , on each other we feed , loving one another indeed';
finishing at the end;
its a black and white picture ; my hands become bracer , as his face becomes closer..
grabbing me;
a hard squeez with his soft hands , we both took what we can, as our bodies expands.
the aftermath of lovemaking;
still kissing and touching , we were in the rain now the suns blazing, our bodies are glaring , together were clinging , we sit naked in the sun after lovemaking.

times like this..

is a reminder of why im ready to leave;

thanks mom, for being there

when i really needed you.



repetitive loving

Have you ever felt all alone , and then suddenly someone pops up into your life ..
while they hold you ; it feels as if you dont have to fight anymore, for whats right.
 As they sit and stare in ya eyes ; the glare in their eyes makes you wanna give love a try..
sitting there holding eachothers hands , feeling their soft touch , while ya pulse of ya heart expands..
expanding so fast that they can feel it thru their fingers ; thinking deep inside , they can be a heartbreaker.
you both kiss while sitting under the gloomy weather , the kiss was so supple , it made the night even brighter..
one hug can mean so much ; just a tight one can have you lovestruck.
your thinking in your head this is to good to be true ; too good to be true to have anyone love you..
your happy that this time finally arrived , thinking the love you have that no one can divide..
as time goes by your hoping it gets even better; having that special person, ya only lover.
your starting to see changes ; different arranges
in the beggining you saw you and your lover going down the alter ; and at the end ; you saw they were nothing but like the others.

"that special someone"

have you ever met someone , that someone that you knew that was special;
that special someone you didnt wanna let go , as they held you so soft and gentle.
aha that special someone who you fall asleep on the phone with.
yeah the one who gives yo butterflies as you kiss.

you know thier special when all you do is smile at their text ;
someone who dont always bring up sex.
the one you dont wanna let go and just hold so tight.
so that the love between the two could strike ,..ignite.

lets get matching tattooes, yeah that type of special person.
that special person were the love is almost certain;
the one you can go on corny dates with, and drink from the same straw
the special someone whos on speed dial when they call. :)

holding hands while smiling from ear to ear.
while talking freaky in front of society and not care.
yea that kinda person.who loves/likes you from deep within.
the one and only that can fill your heart ; the part that needs to be filled in.

the person no one else can compete with at any moment.
the love you been looking for or at least has the potent.
that special someone you can just cuddle with naked and not do anything.
and hold each other and just look in eachothers eyes with all by means.

okay so that one person youve been looking for and they finally arrive;
at the right place and the right time.no time that anyone can buy.
the only ones company that you enjoy
company no one else can destroy.

its always good to have that "special person" someone new.
that special person whos been looking for someone like you;