Distant Lovers.

The Love between two individuals shouldn't have a distance.

but sometimes you want a hug or kiss from each other instant.

Being thousands of miles away from eachother

worrying about about if your only lover found another lover.

It becomes harder every moment you without your other half.

While missing eachother hurts with the feelings of doubts and sad.

things change , and so do the two

the mind starts to wander of wondering ,

if long distant loving is for you.

everyday text and everyday 

calls turn into a few texts a week and no calls at all.

All of a sudden the hope and faith you had for the distant loving left,

leaving you with the memories and eachothers belongings eachother kept.

The timing was so wrong , but it felt so pleasing at the moment.

leaving you stuck with the kisses and hugs 

you'll never forget .

hoping wasnt enough , loving eachother

internationally.

When really we didnt think carefully 

we forgot about reality .

just venting

dont wanna rain on no ones parade ; but as the days go by , i tend to question everything or maybe i just overthink alot of stuff.  People may not know, but i see right thru alot of things. I hate when people sugarcoat shit and hates when people "beats around the bush" to get shit out. Like fuck , seriously ? nothings going to hurt my feelings . What feelings <-- is what i think sometimes. What feelings do i have to offer anyone anyways ? theyve all been crushed , chewed up , and threw away. heartless ill say ; Im only sweet when i wanna be but no one can change how i am. A non-caring person; Its like I wanna care so bad but i always expect the worst and in the end the shit you already knew wont be so bad or suprising. Or maybe is it just me. Maybe im too deep and too serious or maybe that person may think im just a total bitch ! maybe i am...Until someone can show me and prove to me that they are not like the others, shit will change..until then idgaf still ; I just need some understanding, but yet no one understands. they say they do but they really dont. Unless someone has been in my shoes they dont understand shit i say or shit that i have or am going thru...but you know what , i dont expect for noone to understand shit ; people dont think as i do. so much is on my mind right now, so deep i dont even wanna write it . fuck it. itll stay in there until i feel like venting more . as for now fuck this, fuck them , and fuck that. fuck everything ...yeah ; im [angry] i dont care.

ive been through many obstacles in this young life of mine , and still manages to stay strong and smile , when these secrets of mine are tearin me apart.

The little things in life are the most special moments that count.
Having someone who loves you and with the love you give by no amount.
Smiling over text messages , which made your day no doubt.
Having that one person you make as a priority , who teaches you what love is about.

The moments when your life is not perfect by far but you still have that one person by your side.
doing everything in mind without having anything or anyone to abide by.
The days you feel like giving up but that person passes and you give it one more try.
Now knowing that sometimes someone out there does care, and that not everyones love is  a lie.

The more special feelings like being with that person , holding them to know that they are there.
kissing them to let them know that you do care.
waiting to grow more and more in love with eachother
calling them not only your bestfriednd but your lover ♥